the moon is a lightbulb breaking

11:19am: elliott smith is a genius.  its too bad he was actually as sad as his songs led on...

3:39pm: heres my daily mindless post.

my friend came in today and told me he was in fact there. which was a little saddening since i drove all the way over there yesterday. at any rate, we chatted for a bit because i was still [hand]cutting his decals. the jist of it is he needs labels for his food stuff he is selling, he wants me to make them, blahblahblah. the dude is cheap, so i wouldnt be making any money off of this essentially, but if they turn out cool it could be a thing. i dunno..designing something for mass production. cool.

last night was a bummer wow wise. didnt level. didnt do any instances. had a loss in bg. i didnt feel like questing. chatted with people from the new guild im in. that was about it.

i guess tonight were going to the flats to take photographs. it will be fun til around nightfall when i cant take pictuers anymore. i really need to get a tripod..[and a digital camera.]

i kinda feel lonely a bit. like i want to hang out with friends and stuff. everyone is busy, or upset with me that i havent been in contact with them much lately. other friends i cant even pretend to care about. sucks.

i guess sunday im going to grandmas. i would really like to clean out the inside of the car..got laundry to do..relax..gah..

the weather has been so funny lately. i really was scared that summer was ending. like abruptly, but thankfully its warmed up. i am in dire need of comfortable/extremely warm things to wear to work. i REFUSE to freeze all winter again. not to mention i need to buy a space heater for my desk....

i would love to go blow some money on clothes..or do some shopping in general!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

11:20am: i am stuck between a rock and a hard place.

is that the saying?

im also hungry and tired.

12:40pm: yo motherfucka weeeee!!
when youre a kid and you wanna go wee
but you aint got drugs yet...
you hold on for your life..
hold on to your little gonads..and strife..

gonads and strife..gonads and strife..gonads and strife...
gonads and strife..gonads and strife..gonads and strife...
gonads and strife..gonads and strife..gonads and strife...
gonads and strife..gonads and strife..gonads and strife...

gonads in the LIGHTNING..in the LIGHTNING..and in the rain..

12:24am: shows...
i am planning on attending these shows with my show going sidekicks, as should everyone for a great time...so feel free to join..

11/25 - peabodys - lovespank [franks band]/sponge - 7pm - $12adv/$15dos

11/29 - grog - Unwed Sailor/Waiting For Evangeline/Watching Tomorrow Burn - 9pm $7

12/03 - peabodys - Suicide Machines/Stretch Arm Strong/Whole Wheat Bread/fordirelifesake - 7pm - $12

12/04 - grog - DEP/The Bronx/Between The Buried & Me/Horse The Band - 8pm $13 adv/$15 dos

12/18 - grog - International Noise Conspiracy/Circa Survive/Nightmare Of You - 8pm $10 adv / $12 dos

apparently there arent many good shows in the near future. though i didnt check the odeon...but ive yet to go to that venue, so chances are theres nothing going on there either.

thanks to claire for that correction on the sas show...lol.

8:57pm: bling bling
just checked my final grades online..

4 A's
=
4.0.

bam.
thank you.

++
got Popular season 1 on dvd today=hotttttt :D

8:28pm: my mood lately has been hitting the extremes its wearing me out. i feel like there are a whole mess of things that are sorta happening that arent helping at all. not to mention some of these things are starting to make me feel trapped, so even if i wanted to change things to make myself happier i couldnt. many stressful situations are coming up at work, which could just be chalked up to it being "that time of year" but its things that constantly bother me despite any other factors. claires being short with me and such the past few whatevers doesnt make me feel well. i think its cleared up now, but it still bothers me. this crap with my friends is really starting to get on my nerves. i suppose some of the above are always getting on my nerves, but at this point im tired and it bothers me more then usual i guess. i dunno schools about to be starting again soon, and i dont feel like ive gotten to take a break..as a matter of fact i havent. and i dunno how good that is. i could use a vacation.

1:02pm: got some business done today. funny cause i overslept by like 2 hours..that is overslept passed the time i wanted to get started today, not for the time ive been waking up lately. its hard to get home from work late and be um normal or something. hahaha.

anyway i called RITA to see why they keep fucking charging me for passed years and next years taxes. apparently they are retarded and keyed my 2002 w2s for both 2002 and 2003. thus the reason my tax rate was so high since that was when i was working my good job. i have to send a copy of my 2003 stuff to them so they can recalculate my stuff...my bets are on the fact that theyll still come back and say i owe em something. thats how it works with those assholes.

i dropped my math class and added 1500-advertising design. i guess its focusing on layouts and quark and all that good stuff. i dunno this will be my first semester with nothing but computer classes. might be a bit rough hehe.

tonight is the final final and then school will be done with til next month. i dont know whats worse, having homework or christmas shoppers at kohls. tough call.

actually last night was decent at work...cause there were no customers! it needs to snow in buckets more often. funny thing is there were still a few idiots in there. who braves the weather and risks their lives to go shopping at kohls? lol

3:48pm: i didnt realize that there was a huge snow storm that hit..or is continuing to hit up here and yeah. its kinda like all the snow we should have been getting for the last month is coming down today. all i can think about is i either shouldnt have come, or that i dont wanna leave cause its gunna be a nightmare trying to get home later tonight. hopefully ill make it in time to get to work and such.

i guess tomorrow i dont get to wear jeans and do markdowns cause they actually need me to work :( bogus.

i dunno i should prob get to class. i bet my teacher wont even show. i wouldnt blame him lol.

6:27pm: why do i get...
hot
sweaty
shakey
dizzy
cranky and overall fuckin pissed off.
all with a numb mouth?

rubbish.

3:19pm: denise...
spent 45 minutes in math today.
got exam grade back-94%.
got sad because she wont be getting that A in business.
got a lil more sad because she prob wont be getting that A in math.
cannot complain because they will both be high Bs.
is glad the semester is almost over.
must do some extensive studying over the next few days.
doesnt like the cold weather.
wants to be taking a nap with her sweetie.

12:51pm: had a good weekend :D

and now im lonely, tired, and about to go to school.

8:53pm: greetings from indiana. the ford lived through the drive which is good. im hungry and im out.

5:55pm: im getting antsy..i want to not be here, but maybe not necessarily go home? i dunno. its a messed up feeling im having right now. could just be the feeling of food deprivation. and the fact that i slept quite a bit last night but still feel extremely tired.

i scored a 100 on my lil evaluate so i am DONE with homework for the night. unless i feel crafty later and want to find an article for my current event due wednesday...and i have a quiz in business..hrrmmm..

i think some online gaming is in order hehehehehe

12:57pm: arbor mist plus budweiser, and numerous rum and cokes makes a girl feel very...i dunno the usual drunk feeling.

i drank, i screamed, i drunk dialed, i danced. all in the name of fun.
although a certain prick ass hoe didnt feel the same way. its not my problem you call me in the middle of the night drunk during the week, tell me you dont even wanna talk to me, then hang up without ever planning to call back. im sick of worrying about this, so i believe certain phone numbers will be forever erased from my cellular phone. i always say ive hit the last straw, but there is no point for me to care or even talk to someone that has done nothing but use and control me the last what is almost a decade. at this point i feel its a waste of time, time i could be using to care even more about my true friends and the one i love.
i might be driving a ford...but im not a total dumbass.
so heres a big fuck you..and goodnight.




as always, this moods for you claire :D

12:18pm: 1 year and 6 monthssssss!
:D
<3

11:55am: i love how in a country that based its birth on freedom, certain assholes make it impossible to be who you want to be.

6:39pm: so um daphne loves derby has the armor for sleep tree on their ep cover..
hmm..

5:37pm: im very hungry today. ive been thinking about johns biscuit all afternoon. hahahaha.

anyway, i got a 91 on the math exam and 31/30 on my business test. hmm ok, i guess i did better than i thought. but its better to expect the worst and end up with the best then the other way around. or something.

tomorrow morning im going with my dad to find another car. im prob gunna end up with a ford since i hate them so much. but ill only have to drive this thing til i finish up with school. so like a year and a half. grrrr.

i forgot my drawing portfolio with my bristol board pad in it so i cant finish that still life today. and today is the last day its going to be set up in the studio....so i guess i have to a comprehensive drawing of the actual flower heads and some other studies so i can finish it later on. i think i can use the drawings ill do tonight as a part of the drawings that need to be in my sketchbook, so i guess its not a total waste of time. gargle.

im glad i brought that mountain dew along..im really thirsty and it will be perfect in correcting that problem.

since ive been working on my math homework here, i can use the rest of my evening to prepare a glorious dinner, gab on the computer, watch some tv, and take some pain relievers. should be marvelous.

sarah text messaged me something about genetalia this morning at like 9. what the....lol

i had a really bad and disturbing dream last night. lets just say if i had common sense in my dream worlds i would not participate in such things. :/ but alas...i feel very weird now.

i have to potty!!!!!

hhahaha claire, that moods for you.. HAHAHHAHAHAHA

12:13am: my car has been destroyed :/

but i have not.

5:01pm: so um somethings been bothering me since the weekend. more specifically friday night. um yeah, the way certain individuals treated me was ridiculous. however, it wasnt even really a surprise. its just another kind reminder how some people dont change, never grow up, and never learn to be open minded. its sad that someone thats supposed to be your friend cant even talk to you because you were drinking, or had a cigarette? im disappointed that i even started talking to him again. like i thought after all these years he would be different. its just retarded how i attempt to let people that put me down for the things i did will still continue to do so. haha plus i bet he was jealous that i was talking to jeff and will the whole night. i dont understand why a sober prick would come out. no, i dont think sober people are pricks, just when you know youre going to a BAR, you act like an asshole because people are drinking. hello?! stay home. im not the only one that thinks so. theyre also so immature, they were acting worse than we were. yeah, its really fun to put mustard in peoples drinks and sing stupid songs at the top of your lungs. what idiots.

i dont know why i bother with people like that.

12:51pm: so its over and bush wins. it upsets me that the great state of ohio has failed to come through for a non conservative nation.

i just think its funny..how would you feel if 49 percent of your country disapprove of your lying and shoving old christian values down their throats. changing the constitution because youre homophobic. sending troops to a country that doesnt believe in the democratic ways youre trying to instill upon them. they dont even treat their women like people, but you expect in a day, week or year that theyre going to change that and even give them the right to vote? they dont even have the right to go out and show their face in public!

the positive of this election? the fact that this is the last 4 years we will have to deal with big dubs and his political corporation.

the end.

6:25pm: so despite my past feelings on politics and such, i decided to use my registration for good and casted my vote after school, old school ohio punch card style. im kinda disappointed though cause i didnt get a damn sticker. anyway i thought 4 years of one persons dumbass decisions was enough for this country, so now maybe we will see how much shit kerry can screw up.
yeah its true, i didnt care for either candidate. hell, nadar wasnt even allowed on the ballot in ohio.

MINUS THE BEAR/THE DETATCHMENT KIT last night was a pretty good time. sarah and i got there a lil late, but it didnt appear we missed much. there were only two bands, but they both played a long set. i went with 40 dollars, 16 of which i spent on our tickets, and the rest of my money, plus how ever much sarah had went towards some drinks. i had 4 jagerbombs and a bud light. it was great, i was drunk, sarah really enjoyed the music which i was very glad about, we had a fun drive home listening, singing, and dancing to some nada surf, then sat around and drunkenly gabbed for awhile in her driveway. it was a long day, but it ended with me drunk and in my bed. the last thing i remember is hearing my pookies voice :D ..and thats a great feeling.

once again i have some homework up the ass.

im feeling pretty lonely these days. kinda uncool.
no work tomorrow.

i think someone should make me a desktop wallpaper. a certain cute someone.

5:34pm: so um what to say.

the net at home isnt working properly, which i guess could be a few things so ill deal with that when i get home. im thinking aol isnt going to be in my future for much longer.

um i was named kohls october superstar, which is the equivallent of like, employee of the month or something. brandy and alan at work put my name in there as a joke but they ended up picking me. thats kinda funny. anyway i get some goofy shit and like 20 bucks on an upcoming paycheck..and the special parking spot if i want it....hahahahahah
um i do work hard though..but its so corny and ridiculous.

i have alot of homework.

sarah has yet to call me back about the minus the bear show, so im not sure if im going to that or not. im content with going home, eating, taking an aleve, and watching battle of the sexes tonight. or whichever program is on monday night; i can never remember.

i dont want to go to drawing tonight..since i already hae a headache, but i have to stop not showing up lol.

work wants me to come in tomorrow again on one of my days off to do some price changes. i mean after school i might be able to spare a lil while...but then again i have homework up the ass. i guess it depends on what i have going on tonight and what i can accomplish..i could use some extra money. or something.

so this month on the 18th is 1.5 years of bein with my cutie. rawrrr.
also this month on the 18th means 4 more months til i turn 22.
what is that.

in the last 10 days, or maybe 11 i have managed to rack up over 300 daytime minutes. which means ive been talking too much. i bet that also means that the claire has been talking to much as well, considering shes the only one i care to use my daytime minutes on.

tomorrow is the big vote or whatever, but i just remembered the address i registered under isnt the address on my license. i mean does it make a difference? i dunno if it does i guess i do one of those provisionary ballots or something. i cant say that im excited or anything, definately not like some people are, i dunno. it better not be busy where im voting, or um...maybe its a good excuse to show up late to class?

i suppose i should do some work on my calendar thing..after seeing what that one girl plans to do, i just gotta do my best to produce a good looking piece.

id like something to eat...such as a juicy steak and such.

who likes it being dark out before the hour of 6pm???
big gr.

12:40am: buenos dias, this is denise writing about life. or something.

so lets see...
math homework is very time consuming. my brain is maxxed out for the night. im glad that once again academic systems wouldnt let me sign on to do some of my lessons. whatever though.

I have my schedule ready for registering. hopefully after next sememster i will have one more year, of course, after taking a class or two during the summer. it wasnt so bad last summer to take that class. i dunno.

grandma and i went to go look at a model house in a new lil development theyre building down the road. the house is much smaller than this one, but i kinda liked the setup...the floor plan was pretty open/spaceous..there were two bedrooms on the ground floor, then the option for an upstairs with a bedroom and loft. that would mean i get that whole upstairs area to myself. not that i dont already, but the room was bigger, and i would have my own lil sitting area up there to do as i please. the way they had it decorated was pretty slick as well. the foier was awesome..there were pillars in there, and a mirror wall. i dunno it was cute. i think with the additions it was like in the 230s..but of course every lil extra things they put in those homes is extra. if my grandma sells this one she was talking about how she would have a lot of money left over if we went and bought one like that, so she was pulling my leg telling me she would get a mercedez with the remainder. i dunno she makes me chuckle sometimes. although um, thatd be nice too and id like to borrow it ;) all this really nice stuff she has and is able to get if she wants makes me wonder and hope that one day i too will be able to provide myself (and a certain someone) with everything we could ever want. wishful thinking, but it would be terrific. i mean it would be great to have a nice house, drive nice cars, go traveling once a year, haha you know...

next, after learning about someone elses recent bout with sour relationships, it makes me feel really grateful that mine isnt like that at all. i dont understand how you can claim to love someone then brush them off so quickly..i guess thats why love seemed so ridiculous to me in the past.

oh did i mention grandma and i went to bob evans for dinner!?!?!?!? heheheeee!!!

tomorrows my last day off before a weekend full of work and such. i guess next week starts the whole open til midnight shit. thank goodness im not working that late lol. id prob drive myself battttttyyyyy! [though those are pretty easy hours lol]

i suppose thats all thats on my mind for now.
besides the fact that im hungry.